February 26, 2014
Well, yesterday was the day we had so looked forward to for the “green light” from Warner’s oncologist. We have been waiting and waiting and waiting to book our tickets to Peru and the moment had finally arrived.
But the light was not green. Warner has been officially pegged with stage 4 metastatic colon cancer. The tumor near his chin (that he had taken out last Thursday) was cancerous. Cancer is in his lungs, pelvis, seminal vesicle and sigmoid colon.
As an added treat, he has shingles and is in tremendous pain.
The first words out of his mouth when he heard the news was “Well, I guess that means we aren’t going to Peru.” Death of a dream comes hard. We are grieving. We are sad. We are confused. We need your prayers, we beg you to pray with us.
But, at the same time, we are not without hope. We are trusting God to sustain us and carry us through this, to keep us very present in the pain and not stuff or hide. We trust Him to give us the ability to love each other well to keep us from being self absorbed. We are believing Him to keep us cognizant of our weakness so that we continually lean into His strength. We long for Him to shine His marvelous light in and through us, to glorify Himself even in this dark time.